Dear people!
I want to get something off my chest.
It is clear to me that some people, institutions and businesses may not agree with my views. I would like to share with you and all Cancer patients my recent life experiences. First of all a little about myself. I am a mother of 6 children (3 girls, 23, 18, 16, and 3 sons 11, 7 and 4 years old).
I have an ex-husband and had a wonderful 2nd husband. He died of cancer 12 years ago. I saw how the tumor defeated him!
I had a strong mother. 8 years ago she prematurely died of cancer.
Then, I had cancer. The doctors give me 6 months to live without treatment and in my belly grew a child of love from my 3rd husband. The options were not encouraging.
What to do? That was the big question. Should I at 4 month pregnant abort this child as recommended by my doctor or very possibly die myself if deciding to not abort.
I decided out of love for this child to take the risk of refusing chemo and possibly dying myself rather than aborting and killing my unborn child.
I deliberately chose not to abort my child out of lover for my child, my husband and myself.
I knew my love was stronger than the cancer! How true even I could at that time but still don’t understand and cannot estimate. It took all my courage and love for my unborn child and husband to proceed in this direction. Many others could not understand my decision. I listened while to my heard.
It was a harder way, but it has paid off.
Our son was born 9 weeks early and he is now almost 8 years old and a big strong boy. I’m also healed and full of gratitude for everything.
I had another son 4 years after my illness, also a child of love. I should have become infertile by the chemotherapy and was then almost 42 years old!
Despite the negatives I choose take a chance and was rewarded with another wonderful son.
In my profession as a nurse I have accompanied countless cancer patients on their death bed some of which died in my arms.
Having to bear witness so often to these tragedies has often brought me to my personal limits.
I asked again and again why cancer had become an unwanted companion in my life. Again and again I meet him, a horrific comic book face. Although never a friend, this disease has brought me much to think about.
I studied its properties, its cell types and its treatment options.
I have met people who were desperately and fearfully having on there last straw – chemotherapy, only to become so weakened that the treatment ends up limiting there days along with the torment of enduring the chemo. They could not really live and enjoy their last moments. Many have told me on their deathbed what regrets they have not enjoying the most of their live.
My own life showed me, that life with 38 years can be ended at any time.
And finally we have to begin just now and to live and enjoy every day, as it could be the last day.
Instead, we run after all the money and work to survive and forget to live.
Everyone is into themselves and there is no trace of real charity. In my eyesthis is a crucial mistake.
Our EGO separates us all. We mentally disconnect ourselves from others. We focus on our own interests without regard to others. We use our environment as host and breeding ground and destroy our environment; kill plants and animals without regard. It’s all about expansion.
It seems we act like a cancer cell because we are the cancer. The numerous cancers around us are our mirror. We all argue like a cancer cell.
Because also a cancer cell breaks out of the cellular association of body cells and begins to achieve only their own goals (as single-celled organisms).
It expands, spreads rapidly and builds their stations everywhere (metastasizes).
We break away from the community and don’t notice that we need all of us mutually. We are actually a part of everything.
And so we have to start to take responsibility for the whole thing. Even our death would mean the death of the environment.
We are destroying our own host, as well as the cancer. The cancer cell, as well as the person believes always still on one of its separate outside. We need to open this separation to become one. The cancer shows us our lack of love and at the same time the key to combating.
The love! The heart as a symbol of love. Because the heart is the only organ that cancer cannot infect. There, the cancer cells will stop.
This is the key to everything, open your hearts. And the best thing is, it cost nothing and can achieve so much and letting lose.
We need to wake up at last. It is time! It is only a software-mistake, switch on the anti-virus-programm please. God bless you all!